Was it a dream?

I guess i never gave myself time to grieve
'cause when it happened it happened so unexpectedly
It wasn't real it couldn't be
so I had to laugh it off
there was no way this wasn't all just a dream
cause I remember clear as day
the way you took my breathe away
and just like that you were gone this wasn't part of the plan
silly me believing it meant something when you squeezed my hand
you gave me more than butterflies you gave me full attacks
my mind was gone, my heart was yours and my body rejected love
but i didn't care I needed to be a part of
you and your world, and your story
and mostly i needed for you to need me
i knew that no one could make you happy
the way I could
and I hope she knows shes lucky
cause now I'm a mess
so shocked not one tear
seems like i don't care
but if you only knew
what it feels like to have the wind knocked out of you....

It's About Time

Started out friends 'cause we shared the same enemy
Thought that you were being such a great friend to me
It was us against the world and we had a blast
Always said if the cops came, we would be too fast
Never had a chance to test it though, all that's in the past
I decided I didn't want that life anymore
You decided I was a bad friend and walked out the door

The enemy is defeated now, so we've grown apart
Nothing left to say, but I'll keep you in my heart

It's about time I get independent and stand on my own two
Stop bein frustrated you'll never understand what it's like to be in my shoes
It's about time I go and do my own thing
Open up my eyes more, you never know what life will bring

You bring out the part of me that you most despise
Made me think I was the wrong one so I hid in a disguise
Well all the times you left me alone, I'd look up at the sky
Talking to God trying to figure out 'whats wrong with this guy?'
'cause In the back of my mind, knew it couldn't have been me
I gave us my all, always wanted you to be happy
Tried to make you understand, but all you did is call me crazy
Sometimes I wanna be like you, walk around like nothing can faze me

The end of us is so much different than the start
Nothing left to say now, But I'll keep you in my heart

It's about time I get independent and stand on my own two
Stop bein frustrated you'll never understand what it's like to be in my shoes
It's about time I go and do my own thing
Open up my eyes more, you never know what life will bring

All the mistakes I've made as I've gotten older
And all I got was the world on my shoulders
So I'm taking a load off and I'm starting to move on
All the chances life gave me, don't want them all gone
So I'm using this one for real and I got my head straight
Doing what I never thought I could, creating my own fate

And it's about time...

There Was Silence

(Every girl is born in a pure white dress it's called innocence)
Her lips quiver. And her eyes grow teary
Head now aching, trying to shake the memory
She's feeling overwhelmed by a river of emotions
Hitting so hard, it's more like an explosion
She was stubborn, ain't wanna be walked, wanted to be on her own
'Till she realized independence made her feel so alone
All of a sudden, she felt someone grab her by the hair
It was a monstrous octopus hands flying everywhere
Violating her, tattering her white gown
Forever turning the angels precious smile into a frown
It was happening right in the middle of town
Though the streets were full it seemed no one was around
What was going on, it all started so fast
Inside her head, girl prayed it wouldn't last
Even after it was over, she knew she had to say something
She opened her mouth to speak -
But there was nothing

This is Me

I be the girl with the cocky model - like swagger
Look through the corner of my eyes you mistake it for a dagger
Won't let you in my biz, you confuse it with deceit
Bow legged stance, confidence you mix with conceit
Chandeliers hanging from my ears in addition to the things I've listed
You don't know me, don't judge me, and don't get it twisted

It seems that nowadays
the sidewalks are my runways
People here to criticize
Never caring what's behind my eyes
They only know what they heard
And spread the word, those little birds
What they say makes me look bad
It used to make me so sad
But that was then, though
And now I'm lovin it, so

If the streets is the catwalk so ya'll can stare and judge me
Then I'll strut my stuff gracefully
I'm a drama queen, good or bad, I simply love attention
And just like they say, My name is the one they like to mention

Deadly Sin

That fire That ignites, it burns in my chest
My Heart engulfed in flames, can't put this to rest
It boils up my blood, bubbling through the vein
Can't touch me anymore I've been brought up in pain
The heat being released through furried eyes
Innocence being conquered, no one hears the cries
Finger tips tingle with the urge to react
Everything will explode. Nothing in tact
With nerves melted off, one can no longer feel
Dying from my own demon, I watch my skin peel
Escaping the inside, now burning the shell
Leaving a tortured soul to go off and dwell

Curious

Just to feel his Touch
How does he Taste?
How does he Smell?
How does His heart beat?
His Voice sound?

I must know
Just to Feel him
Hear his Voice
Call my Name

I want to know His story
And I want
Him
To know Mine

I want to give Us
A try
I want to experience
Life With him
I want to know
What it would be like
For our Hearts
To beat in unison

Not This Time

I say yes, you say no
I say stay, so out of spite, you go
For a while I could not figure you out
But now I'm smart, I know what you're all about
Now I want you gone, but you wanna stay
So I'll tell you never leave, and sure enough, you'll walk away
You thought you could fool me but the tables have turned
You should have known sooner or later you would get burned
And you're so foolish, you don't know I'm talking about You
Well I'm just glad you're gone with all the bull I went through